I saw the difference between your stay and your leave .
You're really release from stress .
I'm happy to see your smile again .
I thought wanna do the same thing like you .
But , I'm thinking , will i be good after i did it ?!
Yes , I'll release from super stress ,
but , is there any good suggestion for me after i did that ?
I'm really worry that i'll regret in the future .

I had been told myself for thousands and thousands times ,
I got to stopped thinking all of these ,
that's no benefits for me .
But , what I'm facing everyday ,
keep on activating my mind to think all those things .
I know that , it's useless .
Human can counceling on others ,
but , cant counceling or brain wash on their own .

Which life should i choose ?
Should i give up what I'm having now ? or
Should i give up what my mind is thinking now ?
I'm worry .. I'm afraid ..
I do not hope that i make the wrong decision ..

God , i know i should choose to give up what my mind is thinking ,
but , do you know it's suffer ?!
Maybe others will think that I'm stupid ,
maybe others will encourage me to continue for another 2 years ,
SAY , is easy than do . They aren't the person who realising the feeling .

But , NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND MY FEELING !!